February 3, 2012
God IS My Provider
We go through recertification every year and we just went through a new one last month. I have received no notifications from Social Services that there is an issue. Now today out of the blue I receive a letter for me and my children that Social Services has informed the insurance we are no longer eligible and in turn the insurance company has canceled our policies effective February 1. Please note today is the 3rd and we received no warning whatsoever that we were in jeopardy. My children now have no medication which they need daily. The notice came at the end of the day when social services is closed. Where do you turn? What can you do?
What I used to do was pitch a fit, treat everyone in my family like garbage and sink into a depression so deep nothing short of a whole chocolate cake (or package of oreos) would fix.
Today, while I admit I started out in panic mode, within 10 minutes I turned it over. God must be doing something. Satan may be trying to send me into a tailspin, but this time I'm going to stomp all over it. Would a loving God allow my children to become ill? No. Can this be fixed? Nothing is impossible with God. Am I angry.... OH YEAH!!! I have decided to focus my anger where it belongs.... Satan. Tired of his control over my emotions, I am endeavoring to face this latest issue with peace and even joy....
I will post back with what God does during this time because I KNOW it will be something amazing. I ask that anyone that reads this post please be kind enough to pray for us during this time. I do not have a job, nor do I have any income. If our benefits are canceled it would be scary. I believe once again God is asking me to trust that He can provide for us more than the Government or a job.
Blessings to all!!!
September 29, 2010
I'M BACK!!!!!
I found some really wonderful, inspirational sermons from Joyce Meyer and with the help of her no self-pitying attitude, I am trying to get my life back on track. So I will once again pick up my blog and write about life. Maybe noone will read it. There was a day when that was all I ever wanted was to be noticed and appreciated. Recently, I have learned that God notices and appreciates and that is all that matters.
This will be my attempt to write about life's trials and tribulations and how God is with me every step. I am on a journey of happiness and peace that is purely orchestrated by God. It may hit some rough patches, but I am going to push forward and stick with it. This year is the time to begin working from the INSIDE OUT instead of trying to fix the outsides.
Lets see what happens. I hope to meet some new friends and get some great comments and support going.
One thing is for certain, God is with me and whoever needs to read this will!
Blessings and look forward to chatting with you.
Kristin
October 9, 2008
A Place of Peace
September 24, 2008
FORGOTTEN PRAYERS & UNGRATEFULNESS
My beautiful daughter Nena! Oh the lessons I am learning through the gift of being her parent. I want to share one with you today.
Nena is the "Drama Queen" or DQ, as I affectionately refer to her, of our family. (I believe I run a close 2nd!) She is the one always acting, singing, leaping in wild abandon and over dramatizing everything. She is all about having fun and loves to dress up. Unfortunately she is easily bored and we don't have much in the way of "dress-up clothes".
She had been begging me for over month (ruthlessly, as DQ's are apt to do) to get her some dress up clothes. I kept insisting that she could earn them as a reward and then only if funds permitted.
I managed to scrape up some pennies and went on ebay to see what I could find. She was doing so well in school and I wanted so much to show her how proud I was by answering this fervent, repetious (and quite relentless) request of hers.
I found one beautiful used sparkly dress with puffed sleeves that I could afford. It arrived very quickly. I couldn't wait to give it to her when she came home from school. I had it all ready to hand her with praise for her good school work when she walked in the door.
Well.... I wish I could say that this little miss just jumped through the moon, but that was hardly the case. Oh she was okay, but nothing like the actual asking for it (i.e. oh pleaaaassssse mama I want a dress-up dress so badly... oh pleassssse mommy i'll do anything for some dress up clothes please please please). You get the point.
She opened the package and said "Oh... well thanks mom but I wanted a pink one!" Went to her room and put it on and came out and repeated how sorry she was it wasn't pink.
NOW... spoiled brat thoughts aside ya'll....I realize this is a problem. We are learning with being grateful for what we get and how lucky we are to have anything at all. That isn't the entire point I am making. Read on..
I sat down at my desk this afternoon (this about 2 weeks after the dress episode) and sighed because I was having to work from my bedroom because I have been without a real office job for over 4 months. I was feeling sorry for myself that my life seemed so unstructured and how were the bills going to get paid with just a small typing job from my home. GOD SPOKE!!!
He sweetly and lovingingly in that whispered way said... "Remember all those years ago when you prayed and prayed for a job that allowed you to work your own hours from home?"
Yes, Lord, I replied.
Child, what are you doing right now?
Working from home Lord. I replied as tears of humility began to form in my eyes.
I was struck just then with so many revelations. Gently as He always does.
First, God hears ALL our prayers and answers them at the right time. Sometimes the answers come years later. In fact, at times, they come so much later, we forget we have prayed for them. We need to always be mindful of what we pray for. We are a society of praying for so much more than we actually could handle that the end result is forgetting what you are praying for and when you get something... it seems insignificant. How unfair to our precious Father who wants to much to see a happy gleam in our eye. He wants us overjoyed. Just like I wanted to see in Nena. I wanted her overjoyed with the gift.
Second, I was so completely ungrateful. Just like Nena was when I gave her the blue dress instead of pink. God gave me a gift and I was so busy with what it wasn't I couldn't see what it was. This is an amazing blessing and I was ready to just disregard it as no big deal. THIS IS A HUGE DEAL!!! I am working from home. It may not be much but 2 weeks ago I had no job, no computer, no internet, no phone, no money for bills and no prospects. Today, I have a computer and not one but 2 monitors (all donated by my former employer). I have a printer donated by someone else. I have an internet connection paid for by the company I am typing for and that came with a phone line. How could I NOT be overjoyed and SOOOO GRATEFUL! Another person donated a brand new foot pedal and headset for digital dictation. I literally have what I need to take off in a home typing/virtual assist business AND I WAS POUTING because I didn't have an office to go to!!! WHAT A SPOILED BRAT!!!
Third, I have been blessed with an opportunity that I would not have had if I had not been without work. Sometimes one can't see the blessings through the circumstances. No job = no money to me. To God no job = fresh opportunity for expansion and growth.
OH PRAISE YOU LORD!!! I am again reminded of my favorite verse "I KNOW the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you NOT to harm you." Jeremiah 29:11. How wonderful your plans to prosper.
What I have learned... Be mindful of what you pray for so WHEN (not if.... WHEN) they get answered you haven't asked for so much you don't know you are getting something you asked for. Be grateful for every little thing no matter what form it comes in. Lastly, I have learned that the best lessons to me from the Father often come through when I am parenting my own children.
Blessings ya'll and thank you so much for your prayers. They are being answered!
September 18, 2008
THE NOT SO GOOD SAMARITAN
HELPING SOMEONE, THEN GETTING STOMPED ON (and then not being very Christian about it!!!)
OR
NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHED.
4) I had to repent of my behavior and I had beg God to forgive me for being so ugly. I am ashamed and humiliated because I allowed "IT" to get to me yet again. Honestly, I am tired of having to repent for stuff. I just want to get it right the first time.
Love Ya'll.... Kristin
September 15, 2008
Peace Beyond ALL Understanding
July 9, 2008
WE NEED YOUR PRAYERS
Because those who matter... don't mind...
And those who mind... don't matter....
Please keep us in your prayers!