Another Embarrassing Moment a la Siesta Summer Bible Study

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS?????

THIS IS WHAT I WAS WEARING ALL DAY YESTERDAY!!! (Yep and I didn't put it on that way either!!)

That's right dearest Siesta's this is my summer bargain pair of pants that I bought at a consignment store for $1.00. I wore them once,sent them to the cleaners and put them on yesterday for Siesta Summer Bible Study day... Good thing I went solo (although if I hadn't someone MIGHT HAVE TOLD ME!!!). It never occurred to me that I was a poster child for Summer Bargain Clothing WARNINGS!!!

I still am in shock went the whole day like this and NO ONE TOLD ME...

I was howling in laughter listening to Beth and the Bargain caution. Leggings inside out, ruffled shirt nonsense, scotch taping stuff... little knowing I was sitting down on a GAPING HOLE (with stains no less)...that could have used some of that scotch tape (more like DUCT TAPE) thank you very much.

I am ashamed to say that I got home last night and told Beth's video story perfectly and then went in my room and go undressed and saw THAT!!!!

I literally went through my whole day in slow motion wondering how many people saw that and why oh why didn't someone say anything. Is this one of those cases where they were trying to be nice or cruel hoping more people were laughing at my expense.

One ray of shining hope was the fact that I had managed to put on white underwear instead of colored so that might have hidden this monstrous HOLE!!! To top it off what is with the STAINS??? No it couldn't just be a hole....stains had to come with it.






What have we learned from this???

1. Siestas, no matter what...always tell someone they have a gaping hole in their clothing.

2. Large people should realize that they don't feel drafts like skinny people (apparently).

3. At 40 it is much easier to deal with abject humiliation.

4. It is much easier to deal with abject humiliation WHEN IT HAPPENS TO YOU ALL THE TIME!!!

5. God is truly wonderful and His sense of Humor NEVER ceases to tickle me...because this kind of humbling is just so, so, HUMBLING!!!!

6. I never should have made the ME, ME, ME comments because God has a wonderful sense of humor and will quickly help me shed my desire for fame.

7. Laugh hardest at myself! (It is so much easier to deal with complete horror and embarrasment when you laugh about it.)

8. Tell others about it so they can enjoy LIFE'S MOST EMBARRASING MOMENTS!! (I have too many to count anymore, but hope you are all identifying).

9. This fits right in with the Siesta bible study conversations... many have been talking about self-image idol and how importat image is and how other people see us. I so identify and that is why these moments just go to show that we are all HUMAN and we should be more loving and understanding because this stuff happens to everyone (or maybe it really is just ME, ME, ME)!

10. I couldn't love a group of women more or want to share my embarrasments and laugh with any bunch more than you my dear Siestas!!!

Blessings to you all from the land of TROUSER TRAUMA!!!!!

COLLEGE!!!!

Okay ya'll this is truly one of those times in life where I just have to say... THIS IS ALL GOD!!! I don't even know how it happened. One day I was in a Bible Study, my first ever, in fact. It happened to be Beth Moore's The Patriarchs. I FELL IN LOVE. God sent such a hunger into my very soul... I just can't describe it any other way. I just couldn't stop wanting to know more and more and more and more!!! Its like a lightbulb went off in my head and all of the sudden stuff clicked. What used to be arcaic language and Shakespearan lethargy.....is now fluid and concise. The how art thou's MADE SENSE. Am I talking to anybody. In fact, if it didn't make sense, I wanted to go look it up somewhere else and then somewhere else and then realized. I want an education on this stuff.

Before I knew it, I was online surfing under Bible Study Education and wound up filling out a form for online Christian Education. I didn't think anything of it, just figured I would get a brochure or e-mail with information. Instead I got a barrage of phone calls and emails from this real live person that said.....we can get this funded for you. The persistence of this young man had to come from God. Any other time, the persistence would have ticked me off. This time, I don't know any other way to explain....DOORS JUST KEPT OPENING. For those you that have experienced weird phenomenon you can identify with this!!! I did not plan on going back to college.

I am an accomplished and experienced Real Estate Paralegal. I am beginning a home business with Prepaid Legal Services and LOVING IT and all of the sudden I am back in school.... HUH??? I am still puzzled at how this happened but smile at the mystery of my precious Father. HOW GREAT THOU ART!!!!

I am beginning to realize that paralegaling might not always be my career. I am also feeling the pull from the Holy Spirit to focus on THE WORD!!! It is not only for myself, but I am guessing He is about to reveal a higher purpose for me. I might add to Him FINALLY!!!!!! (Just kidding Lord... a little humor only!)

Anyway... my dear siestas, readers, friends and family PRAY FOR ME! I am almost 41. A single mother of 2 small children, barely making a living (actually not at all) and entering College. YIKES!

Thank you dearest Father for granting me the prayer of Wisdom. Gaining wisdom comes through knowledge and experience and you are offering me a chance for both. How awesome you are.

College....good grief.

TRUST IN GOD

I felt the need to jot this post based on a reading this morning in my devotional and yet another situation I am facing. It makes a tremendous amount of sense to me. Forgive me if I don't get it across right, but this is an AWAKENING from God. (I just love those special AWAKENINGS I know are meant for me at just the right time!) Here it is....

Jesus did not put any faith in man! He had faith in the Father who could do all things. Well DUH!!!!! You might think I am nuts, but honestly, it makes complete sense. Jesus loves us unconditionally because He knows we are incapable of perfection. We just can't do it and therefore we need HIM!!!! (Can't you see the lightbulb over my head!!!)

I have never been able to make friends easily. I usually feel misunderstood and can't stand confrontation. Most of my life I have been a victim in one way or the other. I try and be nice to everyone. Smile all the time. Laugh, even when I am hurt. (I get hurt a lot.) Time and again I wind up completely trusting something or someone and wind up in a HUGE MESS!!!

Recent example... I have been trying to start a website for quite some time. I diligently sought someone that could help since I can't even make my blog look good!!! (Any suggestions ladies..) I wanted to work with a Christian, someone that would understand my point of view. I had specific ideas. Well... this person sent me an email loaded with scripture and how he was the right person for the job. I tried my best to be completely upfront. I saved every document he sent me. I paid as requested (He set up a payment plan to help me with cost.) Doesn't this all seem perfect!!! WRONG.... I sent money, made all my payments and to this day all I have received are empty promises and insults about how I am unprofessional. I asked for a refund, got a scathingly insulting email. This is one of those people that can insult you and make you feel guilty and horrible and he is in the wrong!!!! You know the people I am talking about. The ones that confront you and get ugly and personal nasty and make a person feel bad or ugly. Make you think you have done something horrible (even when you haven't).

Well these type of people have had the power to make me feel guilty about EVERYTHING and I am sick to death of feeling guilty and powerless. I have been a walking doormat to0 long in my life and God gave me the answer today. (Its about time!!!!) Put your complete trust in God alone and know that people (whether they mean to or not) are not able to be completely trustworthy.

Now this is not to say that you shouldn't make friends, trust and love, quite the contrary. It frees you to do just that without the expectation of complete perfection. Am I making sense to anyone? I confuse myself sometimes, but I am just feeling so free right now.

Bottom line, rather than continue to email bash and get no where, I just turned it over to God. Through this post am making a reminder to pray to the Lord for everything, do the footwork and let Him sort the rest out.

What bothers me is that I am supposed to pray blessings on this guy and forgive and move on. I NEED A SCRIPTURE!! Any suggestions from the siestas... what do ya'll do when someone uses you, takes advantage, insults you and walks all over your good intentions!

Loving all of you and can't wait to hear your advice!!!

I just love God!!!! I can't say enough about reading the Word. Something new, some secret that unlocks the door to something better is just waiting for the grabbing. I love it! Praise God!

Love you siestas!

K

The Great Church Dilemma

I am appealing to my Siestas out there for advice, prayer and whatever else they care to offer. Here is the situation.

I am living in a small town (WAY SMALL). That probably says it all to some of you. As a big city girl, I found coming here to be a blessing, an escape, a peaceful kinda thang!!! I was warned early on by a few kind friends... be careful!!! Don't talk to anyone, don't let people know your business. Well, good grief, I really didn't think too much of it, because I learned a hard lesson long ago "The World Does Not Revolve Around Kristin"! I lived in big cities where my problems were insignificant to the masses. Well around here, boy howdy, I guess I could become "HEADLINES". The one place I felt safe discussing issues and problems became the one place that was the WORST! I have since stopped going to Church and, in fact, am seriously considering whether I really belong here or whether God has other things in mind.

While not going into too many details because this IS a small town and who knows who is reading this Blog, my private pain and personal life has been run through the gossip mill. Things that happened one way are being told in an entirely different way. In fact, I was told one specific person from my church congretation is telling other people "Stay away from her and her family." WOW!!! It sent me back to my school days when no one liked me and the harder I tried to be friendly the worse it got.

I am back to second guessing who I am and what my purpose is. I am sad, angry, frightened, confused and down right irritated all at the same time. I am also frustrated because being angry at being judged is making me JUDGE OTHERS!!! AGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

What does scripture say about Church specifically? I still believe God is non-denominational despite attempts of Satan to the contrary. Do I have to go to Church? Can I homechurch??? Can I church hop? What do you do when your reputation is harmed and things are being said that are absolutely unfair and untrue? What do you do when the rumors contain truths that have been twisted? Do you fight back? Ask God for revenge? Ask God for mercy for them "for they know not what they do"?

This is a serious situation and frankly, I am scared to death. I hate sitting in church. I no longer enjoy worshipping and praising around these people. I feel watched and scrutinized and judged (and dear siestas it is NOT my imagination... I really am). One person even made a comment when I sent my children to church without me with my ex-husband..."Your kids have never behaved better!!!" OUCH! This person actually called me to let me know that my kids behaved better with me not there. Another person's child actually was rude to me at a social function and literally stared down her nose at me and turned her back and rolled her eyes when I said hello to her. This is what we are teaching our children by gossip. They hear what we say about others and then in public settings they behave in a completely inappropriate manner. Now I know this is a child but her behavior was UNBELIEVABLE. Do you tell the parent? Or do you act like a grown-up and ignore this ugliness like I am trying to teach my daughter? (Who by the way is getting snubbed too!!)

Maybe I am being petty and small, but these are just a few examples and there are LOTS more but they just don't bare repeating any further than what I have poured out to God.

The issue is what do I do? I am thankful for any comments and pray God will send me some wisdom through you!

Blessings to all!!!