ME ME ME OR HIM HIM HIM

I just got through typing on Beth's Blog for the Siesta Summer Bible Study. It hit me like a ton of bricks. As I listened to her name off some of the blogs she read and what struck her about them, all I could think of was will she talk about me me me!!! FAME!!!! A horrific idol. It never struck me before but I crave attention. I don't know why. I was adopted that supposedly plays a part in it for me. I was never liked as a kid even though I tried sooooooo hard to be cool and funny! I am certainly not popular as an adult either but OHHH how hard I try to be liked and favored. God is trying to tell me something... Ya THINK!!!

FAME is an idol because it is human attention I am craving and it should be God's!!! God has granted me the gift of song... I love to sing, but do I use it for His glory or mine. God has granted me a sense of humor (sarcastic at times but funny nonetheless). God has granted me the ability to write (grammar and spelling aside...) I love to write, but am I writing for His glory or mine. It is therapy for me, me, me, but I need to find how I can turn that into a help ministry. I have always wanted to use the trials in my life to help in some way. BELIEVE YOU ME I have been granted plenty of trials so I could help.

My desire is really to make a difference, but HOW! It sure isn't going to help having Me Me Me syndrome. So onward with Bible Study....onward toward defeating self and living for HIM HIM HIM!!!!

Love ya'll!!!

COLLEGE!!!!

Okay ya'll this is truly one of those times in life where I just have to say... THIS IS ALL GOD!!! I don't even know how it happened. One day I was in a Bible Study, my first ever, in fact. It happened to be Beth Moore's The Patriarchs. I FELL IN LOVE. God sent such a hunger into my very soul... I just can't describe it any other way. I just couldn't stop wanting to know more and more and more and more!!! Its like a lightbulb went off in my head and all of the sudden stuff clicked. What used to be arcaic language and Shakespearan lethargy.....is now fluid and concise. The how art thou's MADE SENSE. Am I talking to anybody. In fact, if it didn't make sense, I wanted to go look it up somewhere else and then somewhere else and then realized. I want an education on this stuff.

Before I knew it, I was online surfing under Bible Study Education and wound up filling out a form for online Christian Education. I didn't think anything of it, just figured I would get a brochure or e-mail with information. Instead I got a barrage of phone calls and emails from this real live person that said.....we can get this funded for you. The persistence of this young man had to come from God. Any other time, the persistence would have ticked me off. This time, I don't know any other way to explain....DOORS JUST KEPT OPENING. For those you that have experienced weird phenomenon you can identify with this!!! I did not plan on going back to college.

I am an accomplished and experienced Real Estate Paralegal. I am beginning a home business with Prepaid Legal Services and LOVING IT and all of the sudden I am back in school.... HUH??? I am still puzzled at how this happened but smile at the mystery of my precious Father. HOW GREAT THOU ART!!!!

I am beginning to realize that paralegaling might not always be my career. I am also feeling the pull from the Holy Spirit to focus on THE WORD!!! It is not only for myself, but I am guessing He is about to reveal a higher purpose for me. I might add to Him FINALLY!!!!!! (Just kidding Lord... a little humor only!)

Anyway... my dear siestas, readers, friends and family PRAY FOR ME! I am almost 41. A single mother of 2 small children, barely making a living (actually not at all) and entering College. YIKES!

Thank you dearest Father for granting me the prayer of Wisdom. Gaining wisdom comes through knowledge and experience and you are offering me a chance for both. How awesome you are.

College....good grief.

EDWARD'S BIRTHDAY

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The greatest days are the birthdays of my children. This is the day God blessed me with my son. I am so completely grateful to the Most High. Today is another reminder to me that... no matter how much is going wrong some things are VERY VERY RIGHT!!!!

PRAISE YOU LORD FOR MY PRECIOUS SON & DAUGHTER.

Dearest Heavenly Father, Today is the birthday of my youngest child. As a single mommy, there are so many things that concern me about raising this child. I ask that you bless him abundantly. I ask that where I fall short, you step in. Your care is unsurpassed and I know that you will provide for this your child and mine in great and wonderful ways. May he be a blessing to you and a servant. I pray that you instill a desire for you NOW TODAY. May his heart grow ever searching for You, Oh Lord. Bestow wisdom, kindness, gentleness, obedience, grace, health and wealth to him. Lord, we trust in you and worship you. Me and my house will serve you faithfully all the days of our lives til we meet our Savior in the clouds.

AMEN!!!

GOOD GRAVY WHAT HAPPENED TO DISCIPLINE

This gorgeous creature is my precious and precocious daughter Nena Marlene. She is 8. She is the family Attorney. Edward, the comedian, I introduced previously.

Ladies, Siestas a little help here. Encourgement please.

God blessed me greatly with 2 brilliant, beautiful and healthy children. Along with brilliance comes the following: they think they know more than you (and sometimes do which stinks); they always have an opinion (when no opinion was asked for); they will not take no for answer; bottom line they THINK!!!! How wonderful and how FRUSTRATING!!!! This child (diagnosed ADHD) runs me ragged and her brother as sweet and charming as he is is now turning 2!!! HELP!

I would just appreciate any advice or encouragement from those of you out there on DISCIPLINE. I am not opposed to spanking, in fact, I believe that is what is wrong with kids these days... the world has taught them that they have more rights than parents. If they don't like what mommy and daddy do to discipline, we will report them!!! Good grief..and the law wonders why more children are killing and being killed, more drugs, more teenage pregnancies, no respect for authority!!! The other day at a church function, I had a child litteraly refuse to acknowledge me when I said hello to her and in fact she rolled her eyes and humphed...My mother would have torn me up had I disrespected an adult in such a fashion... but kids these days think nothing of adults...no respect of authority! I am scared to death of their influence on my children. I for one still believe in yes ma'am and yes sir, when adults speak YOU DON'T, sit at the table, napkin in the lap, mind your manners in public and at all times be courteous to your elders....and peers! The snobbery of todays youth is out of control and where do they get it... THE PARENTS!!

Did I miss the memo?? When did manners and respect stop applying??? My daughter is so opinionated it takes everything I have not to just scream the roof off....

Be creative, send me your best stuff... what have ya'll done to discipline. What do you believe God wants us to do to raise our children to respect authority.